here i go...

It's been over a year in the making.

I created this blog in hopes of writing my thoughts, feelings, insights, or just my simple ramblings of life. After being out of school for almost a year at that time, I had missed writing…which is saying something since I did take that lovely senior class. Oh Crit. Nonetheless, I missed writing. It was also weird how much I would miss it seeing that after 2 ½ years of newspaper and some yearbook on the side, I left it because I was over wanting to be a journalist. I wanted to be involved in missions…

Back to the subject. So I had created this little world over a year ago. Profile picture? Check. Personal information? Check. Background theme? Check. Writing? Blank space. I couldn't gather myself to write at least one blog entry. Why? Didn't know how to simply start it.

That’s the story of my life. There's so many things that I want to do, want to try, want to create; however, I have a horrible time knowing where to begin. I have all the materials I need to start a project, but it simply sits in the corner collecting dust. It's an awful habit I know.

I realized the root of all this unnecessary madness: Fear. It's because of this fear, I'm scared to step out of my comfort zone. To make a fool of myself. To try out new things. It's easy to fall in routine…repetition of the same things over and over and over again. No surprises, and you always know what's going to happen next. I can deal with that; at least I have control of all the variables before me. But the mere thought of stepping out of my routine, of what I'm comfortable with, gets me anxious. Am I even ready? I allow this fear to take control of my thoughts, and I end up withdrawing from my tasks.

But what's the point of this nonsense? If we don't challenge ourselves, our lives are meaningless. It's nice to have a routine; it's not completely wrong. But there's a line between being a robot and being a human being. God didn't create us to be this way. We were meant for something more than the routines we've constructed for ourselves. We have a purpose, we have gifts. Live a little…it can change the way you view things. And who you are as an individual.

So here I am. Taking my big step.

Welcome to my blog.